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A Crumbling Pink Facade

  A Crumbling Pink Facade

“If I learned I was actually adopted,” The Professor said as we walked along Forio’s Via Roma, “I’d be doing handstands in the city square.”
“Oh? Why?”
“My father was a virtual illiterate who never brought a book into the house. He also was an abusive drunk.”
That took me aback. The Professor had never mentioned his father before. “And your mother?”
“She died when I was two. I don’t doubt I got my intelligence from her side of the family.”
“I can’t imagine you coming from a home with no books.”
“There were plenty of books in the public library. I read hundreds of them, just to escape.”
“May I buy you a coffee?”
“I’d be delighted.”
We settled into chairs at our usual table at the café. Bright sun, a gentle breeze, a multitude of tourists ambling through the piazza.

The Professor, in an expansive and nostalgic mood, told me that two days after he graduated from high school he said goodbye to his drunken father in Albany and hitchiked to New Orleans, where he signed on as a deck hand on a tow that pushed barges to Little Rock via the Mississippi and Arkansas rivers. It was brutal and boring work, he said, but there was plenty of good food, and high pay, which he saved for college. He won honors as an undergraduate at LSU, then was awarded scholarships and grants, one after another, for his masters and Ph.D. at Yale.

“Along the way I found a mentor who suggested that I look into the work of a chap by the name of Erik Erikson,” The Professor said.
“The psychologist?”
“Yes. I objected on the grounds that my interest was literature, but Dr. Ramsey said understanding how we form our identities couldn’t hurt. He was absolutely right. In any event, I was immediately captivated by Erikson’s life story. He believed that we must embrace the notion that will is our personal salvation. One wills what has to be, not what is.”
“Another way of saying that we all must choose who we become?” I asked.
“So you don’t believe in predestination.”
“Well, that’s not exactly the same thing, is it? Who we are is often different from what happens to us.”
“Good point.”
“It’s said that a child forms his identity from the reflection in the eyes of his parents. But I did not recognize myself in my father’s hateful glare. I always knew I was not the loathesome creature he apparently wanted me to believe I was.”
“That must have been awful,” I said.
“Water under the bridge, lad. I was lucky because it turns out that I am my mother’s son. Not his. But back to Erikson…”

Erikson’s mother was named Karla Abrahamsen, The Professor said. She fell in love with a Danish man, who abandoned her the moment he learned she was pregnant. She struggled to raise her son alone, and when Erik was three she married a Dr. Theodor Homberger. During his childhood they kept the details of his illegitimate birth a secret.

“Eric was a tall, blonde, blue-eyed boy. At temple school he was teased for being Nordic. At grammar school they hassled him for being Jewish. He always knew he was different and just did not fit in.”
“Sounds familiar!”
“Doesn’t it? But instead of allowing his difficult childhood to shape his life, he decided he would make himself into the man he wanted to be—a scholar, a writer, an innovator. Which is why he officially changed his name. Erikson means son of Eric. Himself. His own creation. That was his point.”

After a while I said, “Harold, allow me to say you’ve done an excellent job in creating yourself.”
“Thank you, Jim. Yes, I managed it. With help from a few people who cared.”
“I hope Vittoria does the same.”
“She will, lad. She will. The news of her adoption, shall we say, has crumbled only the façade of her building. Pretty soon she’ll see the benefit in putting up a fresh new coat of stucco, in a color of her own choosing.”
“In the end,” I said, “she’ll be proud of her work.”
Harold nodded. “And so will we.”

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I could do no more but raise my glass to Harold and Jim from the table next to them and toast with a mighty "Hear, hear!"

If I was a character in the novel, of course. Another excellent chapter.

Excellent, as usual.

after he graduated high school

bothers my fussy ear a bit. after he graduated from high school,

It was brutal and boring work, he said, but there was plenty of good food, and high pay. Which he saved for college.

It was brutal and boring work, he said, but there was plenty of good food, and high pay, which he saved for college.

Don't know if you even want that type of comment... If not, ignore it.

Thanks. I welcome suggestions for improvement, always. It sounds better your way.

thanks John;
I didn't know Erikson's background, but what you've written here... - yes that sort of insight plus intellect only really arises from certain circumstances.
Erik, son of Erik.
Erik, for Erik's sake, why not?!
love and blessed be

yeah, but those photos!

Are these photos all posted in a web-gallery somewhere, John? They're fantastic.

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